My story

He was a secular Israeli citizen and he was looking for truth about life. He searched in New Age, reincarnation theories, Hinduism, and Buddhism. He found the truth more than 16 years ago, in Yeshua (that’s the way Jews call Jesus). He is invited as guest to many world countries to share his testimony and lectures about the mission of the Messianic Jews.

Everything began with an experience. I come from a much secularised environment. God was not part of my life – at all.

My childhood in Israel was quite normal. I have got two very good parents, two kind siblings (a brother and a sister). Everything was normal. As a teenager I started to suffer from depression. The cause resided also in certain inherited things from our family and some other spiritual matters I was aware of when I became a believer.

I was a sort of “zombie”. I was alive, but inside my body I was completely dead. At the end of secondary school, as every Israeli citizen, I joined the army for three years. Due to my interior conditions and to my interior void, the whole period of military conscription was quite hard for me.

I didn’t ask myself any questions like “why I did not believe”. There were no options. God wasn’t any option for me. I was a living dead man.

One day things changed. My life was not boring, but empty. I did things that made me excited, but I was not able to taste them in their deepness. Inside me I felt the void. One day I decided it was time to do something. Today I can understand what went on, but back then I was not even able to imagine what happened to me. In the course of two days everything got clearer.

Something happened in my interior. It was as though a new dimension was added to my life. God gave me faith. A few seconds before I was a convinced atheist; a couple of seconds later I became a believer. By the way, I was not aware at all of what was happening around me.

It was the beginning of my rebirth. From that time on I became a new person. My life perspective changed. I was like a little child. Mothers know it very well… New born babies don’t understand too much, but they are very hungry. I was so hungry too. I was longing for spiritual food. A whole new world was opening before my eyes.

I was not eating any good nutritional values. I ate anything. A lot of that stuff was New Age, self-aid books, meditations, reincarnation, mediums, and channels. I travelled to India and I tried with Hinduism and Buddhism. Judaism did not interest me too much. When I was looking at orthodox Jews (representing Judaism in my mind) I could not see any joy or light in their eyes.

I realised that this was not what I was looking for. I was looking for truth without understanding. I was looking everywhere. At this stage, God started to call me. I did not understand. I did meet him - for example, in museum paintings. I was so attracted by such a person. It was kind of close to my heart, but my mind was far away from him.

It is also because I am Jew. For us Jesus is no possibility. There is a wide range of possibilities, but Jesus is not among them.

I was attracted by him, but it didn’t have any sense. During that period my depression worsened a lot. I was more and more confused, because I was fed by all possible sources. I could not even say if I felt good or bad. I could not distinguish truth and lies. Back then I was drug-addicted. All that brought me to a situation in which I was frustrated and hopeless. One day I told myself I couldn’t bear it anymore. It was a real breakthrough. It was my first real prayer.

I thought I was spiritually growing because I had learnt many things. Nevertheless, my spiritual conditions were getting worse and worse. I never had in mind the idea of starting praying.

The Lord was just waiting for me and for my conversion. He was sending me His people. The early believers I met were Christians. It happened after I prayed.

They started to tell me about God and salvation. I answered I already knew all that stuff. Indeed, New Age comprises anything, including Jesus, though the same Jesus as the one we know. I told them I knew everything. They kept talking and one of them remained in contact with me. He invited me to a meeting of their community where I met the first messianic believers.  

One of them later became my spiritual father. I thought they were all Christians, but he was a Jew. He told me how God appeared to him. His experience was completely different than mine. God entered his room and presented Himself as the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob – as Jesus. I was very encouraged and it was for me an invitation to look for Jesus. I had a lot of questions for my friend. I started to read the Bible, and especially the New Testament, but I didn’t understand too much. I couldn’t understand the facts about blood. It was quite strange for me.

So we started our talks and a couple of months later he invited me to stay in his house with his brother. They are amongst the pioneers of the Messianic movement in Israel.

Initially, I refused this invitation. Then, I heard myself calling him and telling that I was coming. It was practically against my own will.  

I was living with such people who were crazy for Jesus. Jesus was everything for them. For me it wasn’t easy at all. Everything was very intensive. We started to read the Bible together.

Brother Benjamin became my spiritual father. He realised he had to establish bases for my life, because I was confused. We started to read the Bible from the book of Genesis. During this activity, God was renewing my thoughts. I soon realised it wasn’t any trivial book. I knew it was inspired by God. Then, we started to read everything concerning salvation and the Messiah. After short time, we passed to the New Testament. God took off the veil obscuring my heart.

God took off the veil mentioned in St Paul’s letter, which still today covers the minds of our nation. I did believe. I could not deny it. I eventually found what I was looking for. Finally, I really found the truth.

Everybody was surprised. It was like a revolution for me. It was a new concept: the truth is incarnated in a real person. And Jesus says: “I am the way and the truth and the life”. I read this verse and I believed.

I thought the worst was over, because after more than 3 and a half years I found what I was looking for. Then, I realized that the difficult task is to unconditionally accept the truth. I had to fight against myself and also against other factors. I noticed I had an internal block. It is also because I am Jew. For whole centuries Jews have refused and cursed Jesus. It was a sort of spiritual heritage, even though I was a secularised Jew and I never had anything against Jesus.

I wasn’t even able to utter his name, Yeshua. I felt a very strong resistance inside me.

I needed help from my brothers who were praying and fasting for me. One night I knew it was time to take a decision. Yes, we’ve got free will, but to a certain extent God caught me. It was like Moses when he saw the burning bush. He was not able to get back. I had found the truth. I knew that if I refused that truth, my life would not have any sense anymore. Indeed, searching the truth was all that counted for me in this stage of my life.

I could not even explain how hard my fight was. I just had to say “yes”. This word was in my mind, in my heart, and in my head – everywhere. Eventually, through God’s grace I managed to say “yes”.

Benjamin guided me through prayer and I said “yes” to the Lord. It was just the beginning. On the following day, I woke up and everything had disappeared. I was paralysed in my bed. The Enemy was attacking me from all sides. My mind was obsessed by thoughts like “it’s just a bunch of lies…” I was like a little child. I was not able to move. Benjamin entered my room and looked at my condition. I started to strongly pray against the lies of the Enemy and I declared the truth in my life.

And things went like that, one day after another. God was healing, freeing, and renewing me. When I moved to the Bergers’, I felt like a person lost and broken. God was renewing me. It was a long process.

A few months later, I decided I wanted to be baptised. It was an act of obedience. There were many things I couldn’t understand yet, but I knew I had to do it. What brought me to the Lord was not His love or the understanding that my sins are forgiven, but the simple fact that He is the Truth. 

It took long years to be enrooted in Him and to be able to stand upright. The process of my rebirth was quite hard. I was not a good boy for my spiritual father. I caused him a lot of problems.

Nevertheless, God gave him such a love for me that he was always faithful and kept working on my spiritual education (until I became an adult). It is an on-going process. God is continuously healing and teaching me as a disciple.

God also gave me indication about my life vocation. Concretely, He showed me that I should live in celibacy for Him. It is something Messianic Jews still have problems to understand and accept. Even my family was not so keen to accept it. As time went by, my family understood the change that Jesus brought into my life. Today, my family is supporting me in my choice. They are happy because they see that I am happy. I pray for them and I hope that once they will know the Lord as well.

On 24 April 2017 Eyal visited Slovakia. He perceived this word of the prophet Isaiah for our country: “Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the LORD rises upon you!” God is planning spiritual awakening of Slovakia. It’s up to you, the Slovaks, how to respond to such an invitation from God.